Blessed with 3 Boys

This morning I did a google search and found some excerpts from a book titled “A cup of devotional for women.” I found it to be very uplifting, positive and devotional. I’d like to purchase this book in the future. In my previous blog post here I wrote that my husband had let me down and I couldn’t count on him. I was wrong to be angry with him and hold him accountable. The Lord was with me the whole time and nothing really bad happened. I have to repent to the Lord and tell my husband I’m sorry too.

I wanted to write a blog post although I don’t have much time. Friday I had one client who I did some housework for and then she wanted to go shopping. After I had helped her unpack her things I went to my van to go to my next client. I had exactly half an hour of traveling time(I get no time between clients) and the lens popped out of my glasses! I was unsure of what to do because the screw needed to be screwed in and I had no screwdriver. I called my client on my Nextel and asked her if she had a small screw driver, she said she did so I ran back to her apartment. I tried her small screwdriver and it didn’t work. She suggested I driver up to the pharmacy and purchase one of those eye glass fix it kits. Ok, I will but how will I see well enough to drive? The lens had fallen out of the side of my worst eye! I’m very near sighted. I didn’t worry about that I just drove since it was right up the hill. I went and bought one and took it back to my van to try to fix. I had been calling my husband for a while now and alerting him to call me back. I am now crying and shaking and parked too close to the car next to me with a broken pair of glasses and trying to get ahold of my husband still to help me. I am literally stuck since I can’t see very well. I climbed out through the passeneger side of my van and take my broken glasses and the kit and ask the pharmacist if he can help me. He told me to go to the girls up front and gave me a smile. I walked up front and one girl tried her hardest to fix my glasses but couldn’t. I thanked her and told her I understood. Then another girl (who use to be sort of rude when I lived in this particular town) asked where I got my glasses? The eye doctor was right in town just down the street! I dont’ even know if they were open that day of if they would charge me to fix them? She again told me to try the eye doctors. I walked in the rain to the eye doctors and the receptionist said “may I help you?” I told her I did not have an appointment but the lens popped out of my glasses and I didn’t know if it was possible for them to fix them? She said no problem and took them back to the doctor. I laughed along with the receptionist at this time as we both agreed how helpless we really are without our glasses. “You know those twisty ties? I have been known to use those in a pinch after I strip all of the plastic off.” Really? A few minutes later the doctor came back with me glasses and I could see again. I was so happy I said the first thing on my mind God bless you! I’m thinking the doctor might be jewish because of his last name but my glasses were blessedly fixed! Oh and those universal fix it kits for glasses aren’t so universal. He told me there are types that can’t be fixed with those. I then called my client and asked her if she still wanted me to come. She told me she needed my help bad! I apologized profusely for being late but she appreciated me calling. I tried calling my d.h. again and a couple of minutes later I got through to him. I felt very let down by him and told him so. I tried for over an hour to get throught to him. What if I had a real emergency besides just a broken pair of glasses and being stuck somewhere becuase I couldn’t drive? Since I started this job I feel more independent from him and feel like I need him less and less. When I really needed him I couldn’t count on him. Before he insisted it was the man’s job to work and now he wants me to have a job with mother’s hours. Why? It’s almost like he knows his health is failing and I slowly see changes in him. I just take it one day at a time as far as health issues go. Sometimes I feel the decks are stacked against him.

When I go out to a client’s house for the first time I’m still nervous. Many times my clients are homebound and rely on me to be a source of friendship in their day and share conversations that I hold dear to me with the strictest of confidence. I have one lady who is wheelchair bound, another lady who is 80 plus years old and a 3rd client who has many health ailments and has nobody to help her. As a Christian I try to remember the golden rule and treat them the way I’d want to be treated and I try to be joyful too. I had one lady tell me she just felt better having me there with her. We shared conversation and as she could we did chores together. I pray before I start work each day for the holy spirit to be with me and my clients and to give me the strength, energy and patience to take care of all of my duties at home as well. I leave each clients house after giving them my best to spend time with my cherished family to give those I treasure most of all my best.

I’m working now. My boys go back to school tomorrow. My oldest son has been watching my youner son for the last week and a half of school. I’m now going to have 2 clients a day on some days. My client (L) is wheelchair bound and can’t get in and out of my van so I may be losing (L). I have another client (R) who is usually just 3 hours a week on a Sunday but I had to do her on another day also. I don’t know if I can really handle this many hours? I will rarely have any time at home while my kids are in school. I have to sit down and look at my schedule and see what I really do have and dont’ have. I have a new client tomorrow. My mom also works for the same company and didn’t like her so I get to try her out. I have to work for one client (L) from 9a.m. to 11a.m. then run to (M) from 11a.m. to 2p.m.  I will have to leave the house for 8a.m. and wont’ get home until 2:30p.m. then my boys will get home at 3:30p.m. I have no cell phone right now. I will have to get one in case one of the school nurses needs to get ahold of me. How am I going to have time to eat lunch? I guess I won’t be able to. I think I’m starting to lose weight already. I hope I’m not expected to have any more clients other than these 3. What if I lose (L)?

I am working for a homemaking company that caters to the elderly now. I start work tomorrow from 10am to 1p.m.  It will be slow at first but then I will get more hours. It looks very promising.

To my faithful blog readers and to those who may be here for the first time, the website through which I have my blog may be closing. The owner of the website is not getting the traffic or enthusiasm he once had. If he does indeed choose to close his website forever I will have to find a new blog host. Has my blog touched you in any way? I’ve had so many wonderful responses from those of you in cyberland whom I’ve never met in real life. I’ve also got responses from those who are not Christian and didn’t like what I was promoting. Have you checked out the Geeks For Christ website? If you haven’t please do so now. I’m asking you all to respond to this so I know if I should keep up my blog and any feedback for the G.F.C. website would be welcome as well. Thanks for your help Michelle

Each day of my life is filled with so much bussiness as a mother, a wife, a helpmeet. The list of chores that must be done is also never ending. Finding time for the Lord is a top priority. Sometimes unexpected things come up and we must take them gracefully. An unexpected visitor may show up. A piece of glass may brake. A child may get sick. Your husband may want to do somthing else. Bad weather may happen. Your plan must be flexible enough to fit in things like those menitoned. Think about Mary who had no place but a manger to give birth. She did not demand to have things perfect did she? Yet many times I want things to be just so. After the dishes are done I wish they’d stay done only to have my family dirty up more dishes. Isn’t that what dishes are for? After I vaccum the rug I think to myself how much better it looks. Someone walks in and gets the carpet all dirty. Am I blessed to have a family? Yes! I’ll just have to vacuum when it’s pleasing to my husband. Just because things don’t go as planned does not mean we don’t have to be thankful and joyful. If my family is well enough to dirty dishes or track mud on the carpet then praise the Lord! They are healthy enough to eat well and we’re blessed with food and good health too! We’re fortunate to have a roof over our heads as well. In just a few short years my older boys may decide to move out on their own. I’ll enjoy them while I’ve got them. Have a blessed day and remember to smile even when life does not go as expected.

Today I took my oldest son for his physical since he’s going to be 16 in August but the school nurse needed a physical done before then. This is the first time I’ve been asked by a doctor to step outside and into the waiting room while the physical was being conducted. I understand my son is growing up but my first thought was what if this doctor is some kind of pervert? I can remember when my son was just an infant and I took him to one of his very many doctors visits. Another mother was going to enter her son into a beautiful baby contest but he suddenly came down with the world’s worst case of cradle cap and his face was covered in it as well! Needless to say children don’t come with directions and also needless to say my son has grown a lot since then. Today his weight was 133 pounds. There was a time when he was around a year and a half when he had stopped growing or shall I say gaining weight to the doctors satisfaction. You’d never know it by looking at him now. Today the nurse told me he’s not going to be very tall. I’m not very tall and neither is his fahter. Of all the trials and tribulations we’ve gone through I’d say he’s been a very easy child to take care of. He has his share of childhood illnesses and then some. He had surgery 3X as a baby and many, many ear infections and his share of asthma flare ups. He’s so smart and healthy today and I’m so proud of him. He’s still not done growing up although the apron strings are being cut a little here and a little there at times. He still needs permission to go places or buy things but he has this  whole other life that I know next to nothing about. I say a prayer for him each morning for his safety and that he will not be led into peer pressure because worldly things are everywhere. He has been accepted into the National Honor Society and proven to be polite, trust worthy, accels at his academics and is helpful to his peers. At home he spends a lot of time playing his video games and chatting via the internet with his high school friends. How long will he live at home? I don’t know. What obstacles will he face when he moves out? Hopefully he will learn from his father’s and my mistake about finances and what not to do. The world can be an ugly place and I hope and pray he won’t get taken advantage of or hurt because he’s pure at heart and somewhat gulliable. I wish I could of provided him his own room but sometimes it’s a struggle just to put food on the table or to put gas into our vehicle. I hope I’ve taught him right from wrong and how to penny pinch but without leaving any lasting scars of things he wishes we would of or could of provided for him. What is going on in his mind behind those computer games he plays? He is a young man of few words and sometimes I must pry him away from his video games. There is so much intelligence there and a sense of humor too. Just the other day he made my heart melt as I was picking him up from a laser tag birthday party and he gave all the things he won at the games away to his 2 brothers. He wants a bass guitar so badly but we just dont’ have the money. I can even buy him a stick of deodorant, pay our van payment or put auto insurance back on our vehicle. He wants to work so badly over the summer but the people who own the ice cream shack that has yet to be opened seem to only be playing games with him. It makes me angry they don’t see the good in him like I do. Supper tonight was sherpard’s pie. When he was younger, none of his foods could touch each other. Tonight he mixed it all up and ate it with no problem at all. Usually he’ll ask for seconds but his arm was hurting tonight becuase the doctor wanted to give him a meningitis shot before he goes away to college. College? He’s not sure if he wants to go but whatever road he chooses I’m sure he will get a good paying job when he’s ready to move out on his own. Although he’s a young man of few words he always tells me he loves me before he turns in for the night. That melts my heart too.

Yes I realize the week is not over yet but I wanted to write when I could squeeze it in. Know what I mean? I just got done giving my d.s. a haircut with his father’s clippers and then he had a bath. I may have to touch it up a bit tomorrow but he ran out of patience for today. I joined a couple of truck driver’s wife’s forums today or maybe that was one yesterday and one today? Who can keep track anymore? We had a surprise hail storm yesterday. It hailed, it rained and then the sun came out. That is what it’s like living in New England. The weather changes that quickly! I’ve still been Sweatin To The Oldies and my son decided to join me last night only instead of exercising he was doing his own thing  and being very silly about it. I hope the scale starts moving in a negative direction very soon. All of those oodles of noodles and corn muffins my boys love so much are not being eaten as quickly as I had anticipated. Usually those are favorites but they are being eaten slowly so we’ll have enough for weeks. Well I got interrupted on the computer and lost my chain of thought so I’ll be back some time soon. Take care and stay cool.